How big is your heart?

How many people can you love before it’s too much? she said & I said I didn’t think there was any real limit as long as you didn’t care if they loved you back.

Quote

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

-Neil Gaiman

New Phone! and lots of crap!

Finally got my new phone yesterday – Nokia E71…spent the night fiddling with it and downloading songs…

I think in the end like what Vivian said, go without any expectations and anything else is a bonus – the friendship is already a bonus and I am happy with that. Really…oh well maybe slightly more will be good but from her point of view, I do understand that there is really nothing more than just being friends and that well she likes another person so what’s wrong with that? I feel that we will be happy, very happy together but if she feels otherwise what can I do? I am trying to convince her but that wil take time. But what I am most afraid of is that she loses interest fast…and that is what seems to be happening already.

I just happened to look upon some pictures of the Cambodian children and I really miss them. It serves as a reminder that there is more to life than just fretting about whether a girl likes you or not. That is important to me but perhaps that shouldn’t be all of my focus and I am really trying hard to go away from that. I like her for who she is. I have not felt this strong about anyone since the ‘previous wait’ and I am not really a person who wants to drag it out.

Argh this is very very tiring so trying my best to have a ‘ping chang xin’.

Lots of disorganised crap here for anyone who cared to read…

Loves

I was asked this question: what is the greatest thing in life?

My answer: Unconditional love

I was then asked: what is the worst thing?

My answer: Unreciprocated love

人生海海

有一天我在想
我到底
算是个什么东西
还是我会不会
根本就不算东西
天天都漫无目的
偏偏又想要证明真理
别人从屁股放屁
我却每天每天
都说要革命
就算是整个世界
把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心
我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后
一定有潮起
有什么了不起
常常我豁出去
拚了命
走过却没有痕迹
可是我从不怕
挖出我火热的心
手上有一个硬币
反面就决定放弃
嗝屁
但是啊在我心底却
完完全全不想放弃
就算是整个世界
把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心
我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后
一定有潮起
有什么了不起
常常我闭上眼睛
听到了海的呼吸
是你
温柔的蓝色潮汐
告诉我没有关系
就算真的整个世界
把我抛弃
而至少快乐伤心
我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后
一定有潮起
我不能忘记无论是
我的明天要去哪里
而至少快乐伤心
我自己决定
所以我说就让他去
我知道潮落之后
一定有潮起
有什么了不起
啦啦啦啦啦啦
明天我在哪里

Nice food is nice to see, nicer to eat

have been going through recipes now and then and those pictures look really good. must really spend time cooking up some dishes now and then. maybe once fortnightly starting from this week.

here’s one that looks nice enough to eat: http://www.leitesculinaria.com/recipes/

Hello world!

Well it is really ‘Hello world!’ What an apt title.